In honor of Thich Nhat Hahn's passing, I offer this essay written following a walking meditation at a retreat in 2009...
We gather in the parking lot, breath visible vapor swirling in the pre~dawn air. Jagged peaks rise on all sides, silhouetted against a lighter sky that still holds stars and the brighter shimmer of a few planets. A tiny Vietnamese woman, dressed in the plain brown robes of her lineage, leads us through gentle stretches as our numbers steadily swell.
At the appointed time, she stops, places palms together, bows to us. We bow in return. She moves slowly through the throng we have become, and is joined by several other brown~clad monastics. We fall in behind them, matching our pace to their slow one. Inhale with one paired step, right and left. Exhale with the next, right and left. Inhale. Exhale. Step by slow step. And so begins this morning’s walking meditation.
We traverse the adjoining parking lot. The only sounds are shoes brushing blacktop, the calls of a few just~waking birds, an occasional cough. We cross the narrow drive, merge onto the footpath that circumnavigates the large field. Sky gradually lightens as we walk. Stars recede, and mountainsides gain depth and texture.
Those in front, far ahead now given the narrowing of the path, come to a standstill. It takes several steps, however, before this stillness passes as a wave through our slender line. Finally, we stop, too. I look up, see the sun’s light touching the craggy tors surrounding us. And then I turn and look behind.
A silent line of people stretches far back into the dim light, most having not yet left the parking lot. I didn’t realize there were so many of us! What is it about this long slender cord of humanity walking peacefully, silently, and with full awareness, that brings tears to my eyes? I don’t fully understand it, know only that wonder fills me.
Our slow progression resumes. We round the far end of the field and tears spring again. Another graceful line walks slowly, mindfully, silently toward us. Remembering only now that another group was to begin at a different location, I realize that I had only seen half our total before. There must be nearly a thousand of us! Yet it is not the sheer number of participants that touches me so. It is our coming together, this gentle walking in harmony and in gratitude, that brings me awe.
We meet at the center of the field. Our two separate lines spontaneously dissolve, individual streams flowing into a common sea. We sit. Outer stillness moves ever more deeply inside. Mountain air fills our lungs, flows out. A bell chimes. We breathe. Sunlight creeps down mountainside. Breathe. Birdsong rises. Breathe. A fresh morning breeze stirs hair, brushes skin. Breathe. A small bird dips suddenly, darts here and there among us just two feet above the ground, flies off again. And still, we breathe.
In the experience of this morning, we are not separate beings. Belief in individual drops of water and distinct streams gives way. We recognize that we are, in truth, the ocean. Many drops, one sea.
The bell chimes again. We rise and bow~~to one another, to the beauty of the world around us, to the sea itself that both buoys and suffuses us. Our slow pace resumes as we move toward the meditation hall. Inhale with one paired step, exhale with the next. Inhale. Exhale. Step by slow step.
Our day has begun.
Leia
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4 comments:
Beautiful!! Thank you Leia!
Yes, he was!!!
Thank you Leia, for this wonderful commentary on Master Thich That Hahn.... and awareness. It touched our hearts - Phil reminded me today (as he looked at my printout of your essay - that we must respond to you, and also get to the Valley before our (his) time runs out. As his 93 year old memory evaporates some things are still firmly rooted, like the pleasure of getting to know the folks in this place where our parents found such peace and acceptance.
I am trying to practice that sense of NOW and to be grateful and aware of every moment that we are blessed with, together and apart. Thanks so much for reminding me. love from Seattle, Trish
What a beautiful sharing! It touches MY heart that you and Phil read what I write...and that Phil’s memory is strong enough to remind you to respond! And your intention to live fully aware and grateful for your time together is inspiring. As my own husband ages, I know that I won’t be far behind you and am grateful for sisters such as you who show me the way. Thank you, dear Trish.
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